i sincerely hoped i could be at least a little bit less apathetic schoolwise than last year (how is it possible to care about algebra 2?) but that isn't exactly happening...interestingly though it doesn't look like i don't care to other people. well anyway at this point i wish i had been more active and more confident and decided to attempt to sign up for apphysics because instead i have a class in which i don't learn anything at least until next semester and probably not until after the ap...all the while having tons of pointless work on problems i essentially did in schem...to me the point of schem was to speed the whole thing up so i wouldn't lose interest and do the pointless work then so i wouldn't have to do it later. so anyway i have several hours of mindless stoich hw due in a week, which i haven't started, instead of interesting physics problems i wouldn't have to turn my brain off for. also the last two years of useless math courses have led to my losing all the math intuition i had in seventh grade and taking an hour to do the same problems i could have done in ten minutes then... also random algebra used to be fun and now it isn't (hell i would derive random things with the definition of derivative just last year and now when it's my homework it's not nearly as fun) also my brother gave me a geometry problem that i worked on without success for two hours.
anyway this is me
also i seem to have lost my philosophy; if you see it anywhere please let me know...all i really believe in now is knowledge, progress, and my right to trade anything to anyone for anything else...i'm also elitist and i hate people who hate elitists 8)
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ReplyDeleteknowledge is pretty awesome 8)
1) apathy is worse than angst
ReplyDelete2) i hate. history. that's why i'm up at 2:30 am commenting on your blog. hi. junior year is so much fun.
3) as far as the mindless homework - i know how you feel. you could do chem olympiad, but even then it's not too far out there... and you won't want to problems for ap physics in case they're repeated. what a dilemma. i think you should start talking to dr. dell.
4) not being apathetic about school is hard, honestly. in a way, i'm kind of burying myself in apathy by finding ways to better myself and do new things other than school (i'm getting better at photography). i suppose it's a good backup, but it's not relevant to the situation at hand... for that, you just need to take it in bits, i suppose. find things that interest you in school and pursue them... i may not be interested in a subject, but usually subjects give you a chance to apply them. you should use that, even if it's not given.
i'm sure you're feeling bad about how you've regressed, but the ridiculous thing is that you're actually doing very well and maybe you're under the mistaken impression that you need someone else to kickstart your progress for you, in this case school. you know it's not going to happen, so one possible solution is finishing homework earlier and building what you have. i advocate doing new things, but that's just because i enjoy learning things that you can only really get better at with practice (drawing, photography). why? it's relaxing, i get better innately, and i know what i'm doing.
if you think there's nothing more, you're mistaken. if you think you can't progress, you're only slowing yourself down. i'm sure you know you can progress, but there's a point in every subject where you just have to do the busywork... i'm sure you know that. maybe you're at that point. it's not fun, but looking into the future is certainly useful.
so yeah just saying, you'll get places, don't worry about it
and you'll get better, don't worry about that either
just do things you find interesting, and if you don't find anything interesting, make time to look
also i hate elitists can't they spell out their WHOLE name like eLITERATUREists geez it's only like six letters.
so anyways that's tldr 2:30 am advice from your local intp ughhh i hate history