Wednesday, October 14, 2009

um my future what

I
am
interested
in
everything

but I can't see myself specializing in anything

The PSATs today had a question asking for your college major - I put economics without really thinking.
...But I think I was wrong. Sure, economics happens to interest me particularly at this moment, but I would never withstand it becoming my career path. Why? Just as with physics, there was a huge effort to understand the subject intuitively between ~1600 and ~1900, and just like physics the effort completely broke down in the early part of the 20th century. The quantum revolution turned theoretical physics into just another branch of ultra-high-level mathematics, and individual theorists like Keynes and even Friedman turned economics into a deranged form of applied politics. Math and politics are both useful, and both have interested me at points and even continue to do so...but I'm fed up with them now.
Essentially, I like simplicity - I like it when intuition works. And it seems to me that this can only happen when the subject hasn't already been analyzed by thousands of extremely smart individuals. But, of course, this is humanity we're talking about, and enough extremely smart individuals have lived that this is rare if not impossible. That, in a nutshell, is why I'm interested in planetary science - the time of maximum intuition is now because we've only become capable of the necessary observations in the past 30 years.
There are two ways to go into planetary science as a major/profession: the engineering side and the science side. From what I've seen, both sides are absolutely full of bureaucracy and bereft of intelligent individuals. Besides which, neither a life of research nor being an engineer has ever really appealed to me.
There you are—there are, of course, a whole lot of other things I would love to do—for a year or two—but any more and I'll get fed up. Choosing a major? Won't happen anytime soon. Choosing a profession? Not for a while longer. And thus I either have to hope I'll love whatever college I go to and whatever major I choose, or TJ will have been the high point of my life. and as much as I love TJ, that would be a pretty damn depressing thing to contemplate. Of course, I have one more year here than most of you do - but I have a feeling most of it's going to be wasted. In fact, the most useful things I'll learn this year will probably be the two things I'll learn out of school: classical econ and classical mechanics. The problem, of course, is that they're both wrong.

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