apathy isn't angst but it's pretty close

i sincerely hoped i could be at least a little bit less apathetic schoolwise than last year (how is it possible to care about algebra 2?) but that isn't exactly happening...interestingly though it doesn't look like i don't care to other people. well anyway at this point i wish i had been more active and more confident and decided to attempt to sign up for apphysics because instead i have a class in which i don't learn anything at least until next semester and probably not until after the ap...all the while having tons of pointless work on problems i essentially did in schem...to me the point of schem was to speed the whole thing up so i wouldn't lose interest and do the pointless work then so i wouldn't have to do it later. so anyway i have several hours of mindless stoich hw due in a week, which i haven't started, instead of interesting physics problems i wouldn't have to turn my brain off for. also the last two years of useless math courses have led to my losing all the math intuition i had in seventh grade and taking an hour to do the same problems i could have done in ten minutes then... also random algebra used to be fun and now it isn't (hell i would derive random things with the definition of derivative just last year and now when it's my homework it's not nearly as fun) also my brother gave me a geometry problem that i worked on without success for two hours.
anyway this is me
also i seem to have lost my philosophy; if you see it anywhere please let me know...all i really believe in now is knowledge, progress, and my right to trade anything to anyone for anything else...i'm also elitist and i hate people who hate elitists 8)

c22 read it if you haven't already